The Good, the Bad and the Down Right Strange

Sometimes things will happen in your marriage that your not ready for. They're the hardest when they only affect one of you. It's hard for the other partner to understand what your going through, or for you to relate to your partner's problem. Sometimes they're problems you knew you would face eventually just not so soon , but other times they're problems you never expected to face at all. The other night for example I realized I was lactating. Yes you heard me right, lactating. I had that initial moment of panic " what the heck is wrong with me" moment, then it set in, "oh my gosh I must be pregnant." I just sat there with this cheezy grin on my face running everything through my head. Could this really be? I've been on might just be the world's strongest birth control since I was twelve (to help with cramps) and had a cyst the size of a tennis ball removed from my ovary and uterus when I was 18, now suddenly completely by accident I'm pregnant? No, of course not, it couldn't be that simple, not for me. I called the first person I could think of who would know anything about breast milk, my mother, who informed me that lactating doesn't happen until the last trimester of pregnancy....take a test but chances are your not expecting. An awkward phone conversation and many comments about now knowing how a cow feels later, my husband agreed to pick up a pregnancy test. After I got over the fact that of all the pregnancy tests lining that line the aisles of the pharmacy, my man chose the Walgreen's brand two for one test, yup that's classy, and the fact that it is difficult as hell to pee on that tiny stick for five seconds, by the time you finally figure out where to hold it your done peeing, five seconds is alot of pee. Well, there's just nothing sadder than seeing that little blue negative line when your secretly hopping to see the positive pink plus sign. the doctor called today and it turns out the medication I'm on to help my stomach digest food, can raise the lactilate levels in my body which causes me to produce breast milk. He wants to keep me on the medication but also said that this will make it difficult for me to conceive. Now my husband and I are in no hurry for a bundle of joy, I mean yes I was secretly hopping for an oops baby but we won't be purposefully be trying anytime soon. Now we will have to plan way in advance when we we want to start trying and it will take a few months at least for my levels to drop back down before I'll be able to get pregnant, which means a few months of my stomach being horrible and getting sick when my body can't digest on it's own. I'm going in to talk to a doctor about how this whole thing will work and how far in advance I'll need to go off the medication on Friday. I guess this is just one issue I never thought I'd have to face. I know it's not an issue at the moment since we aren't trying for kids yet, but I'm worried about the future. We'll see what they tell me on Friday.